I promised and told myself that I need to do this blog post before I start my full time official work. hurhur. yes, I AM STARTING WORK TMR~ ^^

anyways for all my faithful readers, apologies, i procrastinated much, but i promised u this will be a good read. hurhur, even if it is not, i'm sorry for wasting ur time. haha.

during these 6 months break that i had after uni was FANTANBULOUS~
I had caught up with myself, brought relief to my hectic/disoriented soul and more imptly, had readjusted much habits and 'rituals' in my life. and the best take home--i discovered much about myself and the people around me.

The very one thing: FICKLE, we are all fickle.

this is always constant. hurhur. I received alot of sms/drop-by notes/msn convo and face to face convo... asking me what am i doing and when will i wanna start working. funnily, after 6 months, the same persons can say this: woahhh why u decide to work so fast? dun work so early la, enjoy life first.

me: =.=''

talk is cheap yo~ so nonsense. okaes, but that's not the point.

I have gained alot (weight as well, hurhur) from this half a year.

#1 i brought my family to HK for a really short getaway.
Thru this trip, (yes i paid for all their expenses plus mine), I finally make effort to gel the family cause i was not courageous enuff to initiate something family nor spiritual in that sense ever since their baptism. Rather i think i duno whom i can ask or model after, but thank God, he advised me accordingly. I am so glad. wasn't the best trip ever but i am glad i make a point to get everyone tgt. my aim now is to be like the hk dramas, where everyone in my family can have a good meal tgt not only on mothers' day nor birthdays but like srsly spent time tgt and be involved in each other's lives. In Jesus' name, AMEN~

#2 patience i gained from all my kids.
haha. some might already know i have been giving tuition. Being a full time tutor is srsly enjoyable, but too bad this is not my calling, i can only do so much. but i thank God this time is sufficient. Over time, i realised that kids can be so witty and amazing. So i changed my perspective of hating kids to be neutral about kids. haha. i think God is cool. cause he gave me angmoh kids to let me learnt patience and srsly wad are the odds of that. So i say my God loves me. and thru these angmoh kids, no matter how annoying they are, u just melt when they do the pussy pls. ahah. okaes, i am biased, but srsly, u cant resist.

so patience i gained, i learnt also to be creative thru the way i teach, i must say i do have some ways with kids, ehs angmoh kids only, i cant handle singaporean kids, they are absolutely annoying, period.

the kids cant get enuff of me. i have to literally un-glue them off me after class every week. sometimes, i wonder if their parents might get jealous... haha.

BUT PLEASE DUN ASK ME TO NANNY YOUR KIDS. haha.

ohh and thru God's grace, everyone of them performed so well for their exams, i am just so thankful. like drastic jump from their grades. hurhur. This is my answered prayers, i prayed for them to perform in their exams and that i can shine and from there bring them to Jesus. (: it is really painful to say bye to them. cause.. they are so adorable and so teachable. I guess, it is time to close this door and go accomplish what G has really intended me to do. goodbye kids!~ we will meet again someday, hopefully in my church where u can serve tgt with me.

on a personal note, most of their parents told me, if corporate world dun work out for u, my door is always open, we welcome u back to teach the kids. hurhur. yay!!

#3 perspectives
i have gained some more perspectives in my life and i have understood what God has for me, truly a life that no other person could walk in. this life is meant to be for jacq only. hurhur. i have to keep that vision deep in my heart and not let anyone burn it from me. also, i can't be envious of what others have and which i dun. simply, i am not designed to have those. Thank you God for the many times where u chose to be patient with me and let me have my way to learn. I am sincerely glad u din choose to banish me or burn me alive even after so many head smashing encounters. sounds scary, but he could have.

#4 friendships
as i was clearing my hp msg's inbox, i realised there are alot of friends that i lost and i guess over this period of time, i truly know how to be a good friend and i also recognised who are my close friends, those i wanna do life with. or should i say, it takes two hands to clap, hence if i try to clap and they dun want, then pointless.. the reverse holds true. once in my qt, i remembered, my reflections were who are my friends that would bring me back to G and helped me physically to get close to God, just like how that man in the bible who can't walk, his friends drilled a hole in the roof and lowered him down to Jesus. yeah. so i guess, i come to a life station that i should be working on friendships and relationships with those who are clapping back. (:

#5 understanding on how much impact i have
finally, i realised too that i do have alot of impact all over, especially with the ppl afar from me. I need to be a good steward of my life. not because i need to be a people pleaser but because my life has ripple effects of everyone else. I dun wan to be a stumbling block. I want to be an edifier. I want to edify the body of Christ. Wanna lift them up and add courage in their lives. amen!~ Lord, teach me and humble me. I need to noe how to go about doing it and i need to noe when it is amber lights, u need sound it out for me. I can be q deaf.. maybe i need to dig out my ear wax so i can hear u better. Lord, as i continue to do wad u have planned for me, i pray that i will always be soft towards u and never being happy at where i am spiritually cause there is always so much closer i can get to u. Lord, pls dun leave me. ^^ i need you, more.

so to everyone else, pls keep me in ur prayers..
1. new job means new environment means omgosh, i am a noob! pray that i can adapt fast and learn much too so i can impart much to help in the church.
2. principled. I want to be even more principled and more grounded.
3. balance my life. i dun want to lose the big picture and miss the point.


thanks friends.
i will continue to ensure i am learning every week so i can blog it down.

but something i lost..
i lost how to write academically, ehs, hopefully thru my job, i can get it back.
i miss writing impressive essays, alot.